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"My New Life"
As I start my new life, I reminisce on the old
It is a hold in a way, but I must remain bold.
Not cold to the fact that I must move on,
Finding myself in every new dawn.
As the haze burns away, and brings forth the sun.
I ask myself, "Will the days still be fun?"
But I will overcome one day at a time.
There is bigger, better things in the future to find.
I stand in my faith that one day I will walk,
But I still praise the lordS
And thank god I can talk.
Open your eyes,
There are many things you can do,
But first,
LOVE LIFE BECAUSE LIFE LOVES YOU!
Written by Jesse Billauer
"I Am" 
I am determined, determined to rise above challenges.
I am strong, strong enough to face my weaknesses.
I am wise, wise to decide right from wrong.
I am I, through my own eyes.
I am brave, brave as my grandmother in the Holocaust.
I am love, love that has been given to me throughout life.
I am rolling on, as a story not yet finished.
I am I, searching my soul.
I am a dolphin, a dolphin swimming freely with no boundaries.
I am a swell, a swell that rolls through oceans in an endless direction.
I am a mountain, a mountain solid to its ground in a changing environment.
I am I, finding myself in an unknown world.
Written by Jesse Billauer
"Surfing Again"
The smell of saltwater brings back memories
memories of early morning offshore wind sessions
sessions that I can never forget
forget the place that made me so comfortable and happy
happy to be out with nature experiencing life
life as a surfer
surfer is what I'll always be
be it standing up or lying down
down for the ocean and people who help me out
out in the ocean is where you can find me
me and those who help me fulfill my dreams
dreams of riding waves
waves that soothe my inner thoughts
thoughts that allow me to feel open and free
free from the pain I feel and the troubles I deal with
With the help of my friends I am able to do something I love more than
anything...SURF!
Thank you from the bottom of my heart, without all of you this would not be
possible
A greatly appreciated surfer
Written by Jesse Billauer
"Love Is to Give-Love Is to Receive"
It's hard to imagine,
that I hide my fears,
through lonely tears,
sometimes I'm sad,
reminiscing on what I had,
growing up under the sun,
playing with my friends having fun,
surfing, soccer, and baseball were just some of the few things I loved to do, remembering the first time I said "I love you",
to my Mom and Dad for being there,
giving me unconditional tender love and care,
supporting everything I chose to do,
I would love it when they said "we have faith and trust in you",
this gave me support in what I did,
Boy do I miss, being a kid,
learning as a kid was such a struggle,
I disliked being in trouble,
I always had a story or two,
but it's hard to lie to someone that has so much love for you,
living in the town of Pacific Palisades,
where everything and everyone was so beautiful and true,
hanging with my buddies was what I loved to do,
I save these memories close to my heart,
after my surfing accident I realized that I have a new start,
to succeed in life in whatever I choose to do,
I always tell myself "love life because life loves you",
I thank my parents for raising me right,
this is why I'll never give up on the fight,
to walk and surf again one day,
with that thought I start to say,
I thank you all for being there,
in time of need,
when I needed you most,
I raise my spirit's for a little toast,
I love my mom and I love my dad,
the thought of everyone being alone makes me sad,
I hope everybody's happy with what they do,
never in my life will I stop loving you two,
it's time for me to learn on my own,
if I need advice or help at all I'll call you on the phone,
but until then don't worry about me,
I'll be fine in my life for eternity,
thank you for all that you have done,
it's my pleasure to be your son.
Life Rolls On
Written by Jesse Billauer
"Respect, Love and Cherish Those Above You"
My fathers1 dad and mom,
what a good man and woman,
love and respect is what I have,
for what they have done,
to make my life full of fun,
playing soccer under the sun,
while my Grandpa runs up and down the field,
telling me what to do and where to be,
if you can't see,
who wouldn't love to be me,
in a family full of love,
giving my grandparents a nickname,
was something I didn't when I was young,
Big Mamo and Little Mamo were the names,
I loved playing board games,
such as connect four,
I would never let my Grandpa leave the door,
until I won,
being with my grandparents is always fun,
I cherish every moment we share,
my grandparents really do care,
about me and what I do with my life,
there always going to be around for me,
nothing in life is for free,
that's why I thank them for all of their support,
and faith in me,
in what ever I choose to do,
143 means I love you,
nobody can take away any of our memories,
they will be with me and my kids and their kids and their kids for eternity,
the impact you've made in my life,
can never be replaced by anybody else,
you'll always be in my heart,
from end to start,
love is love,
and I love you both,
being your grandson,
will always be so much fun,
I miss seeing you every day,
the last thing I want to say,
is I truly love you, honor you, respect you both,
thanks for guiding me like the light,
sweet dreams when you sleep at night,
I'll never give up on the fight,
to walk once more and start this process all over again,
you're not only my grandparents but also my best friend.
Written by Jesse Billauer
"The Man Who Flew, Was the Man I Knew, and Will Always Know Forever"
When the news came about what happened to you
I was shocked and stunned and did not know what to do
I felt my heart drop to the floor
I started to cry so I closed the door
I said to myself "This can't be real"
Brady's the man with a heart of steel
how could somebody take him away?
I reminisced about the day
you showed me your world
the world in the sky
the place you lived and the place you wanted to die
as we prepared to go into the plane
I remember you telling me "Jesse this is going to be insane"
so with a big smile cheek to cheek
we were on our way
to an unforgettable day
so as the plane took off
in route to our destination
the fun we were about to have was my motivation
as the door opened
ready for us to jump out
I was about to learn what Brady's life was all about
are you ready one, two, three
as we pushed away from the plane
I entered a world I didn't know anything about
but the good thing was
I was with someone who did
Brady Michaels
the angel on my back
making sure everything went right
because of him I will always remember my first flight
thank you Brady for all that you have done
that day I went sky diving with you was so much fun
you will always be a part of my memories till the day I die
and when the time comes I will meet you in heaven where we both will fly.
In loving memory of Brady Michaels, your friend forever
February 29th, 2000
Written by Jesse Billauer
"The Birth of Jesse Billauer"
A life once pleasant and vertical
Now views his new life from a rolling chair.
Why must the waves crash so hard
To break the spine of an innocent teenager?
I pulled the limp body out of the water
To realize I was holding a new born teenager
He came out of Mother Ocean wet and scared,
Only to have his umbilical cord made of rubber
That before was his connection to life.
He once put on this body-shaped piece of rubber to live his life
Now; it must be cut to save his soul
For Jesse, The end of that cold and mysterious morning,
Was the beginning of a new life
That will be admired and respected
Forever.
Written by Brett Sanson
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